The Broken Ties

“The broken ties”

I wanted to say hello

I wanted to smile whenever I see you

I wanted to do the usual thing one do to their friend

I wanted us to be comfortable

Talking about this and that

Smiling and laughing about silly things

But the situation changed

You changed, so do I

With a simple hi, you misunderstood me as flirting

With a word take care, you misunderstood me as playing your girlfriend

With a single smile, you misunderstood me for everything

I remember this one time

We sat at a round table

You and I, we sat across to each other

I sat in between of my two best friends

You talked to both of them, and everyone else at the table

Leaving me alone in your conversation

I feels unwanted, so I forced smile while being awkward

I can’t remember how I kills time so that I feel less upset

Feeling a bit sad and hurt,

I avoid to do anything related to you, when you are around

I avoided your eyes, straining myself from looking at you

I talked to everyone but you

I keep a smile to myself

But I know well that I cannot completely ignoring you

When my eyes secretly looking for you

My ears secretly heard everything you said

And my heart secretly beat faster than usual

As time passed by, I realize something

We can never go back to our old selves

Where we can funnily joking around

Making fun of one another

Talking to each other comfortably

Because everything changed now

I’m watching silently how comfortable you talk to our friends

How easily you joke around with them

While we are more and more becoming a stranger

Stranger who is connected through someone called friends

And something called memories

8^th November 2016; 3.05pm